So, over the weekend I performed at the Laugh Factory in Reno. (I'm also a stand-up comedian!)
One night, after our shows were over, I was sitting at a slot machine minding my own business. (Fun fact: I LOVE slots. In fact, when this man approached me, I was right in the middle of a bonus round on "Huff 'n More Puff." If you're a slot person you KNOW to leave people alone while in a bonus round!! I won $278 though and was VERY excited.)
Anyways.....a guy walked up to me- who was actually very good looking, but hammered. He said, "Are you here by yourself?" Technically I was but I lied and said, "I'm just gambling before I meet my friends in the cafe later." He said, "You're totally my type. You're thick, blonde, sarcastic, etc."
"Thick." UGH. I don't know why, but it really bothered me. I know many women who are fine with this word, and DO consider it a compliment. They embrace it. I'm not one of those women. Hah!
I do believe this man was super attracted to me, but I wish he wouldn't have even mentioned my size at all. Because the truth is, I've been a MESS, internally. I've been trying to do so many things, and have been going through some health stuff, and I can see it on my body. The stress. The lack of self care. It's affected my confidence, so when he said "thick" it triggered me.
I'm not making excuses for myself, I'm just sharing a vulnerable moment. What do you think of the word "thick?"
Sandy (@SandyStec on IG/TikTok/Twitter)